Well, it’s clear that restaurants are my downfall and they are also my salvation. Well, maybe not salvation, but they are my place of comfort, a spot to soothe myself when I am feeling down.

I totally blew it today calorie wise. I took in over 2800 calories. According to My Fitness Pal I should be at 1340 to reach my goals. I don’t feel too badly about it though.

I was feeling down today and I treated myself. That’s okay, in fact that’s a good thing. I stepped away from my office where I was getting nothing done, went home and took a nap. Then I went out to lunch and came back home where I worked from home for the afternoon, just to have the change of space and to be able to focus on some mundane tasks that I’d been avoiding for a while in a place that’s comfortable and let’s me just veg out and do mundane tasks in an almost meditative way. That’s good. I will have to put in a couple hours of work tomorrow (normally, in summer I take Fridays off because my work schedule goes down to 80%) because I worked a short day today, but I can work with that. I couldn’t work with a full day today and be productive, two partial days will mean getting more done.

I’d hoped to find some fresh veggies at the farmers market today, but by the time I got there all that was left were prepared foods like jams and breads and such. I didn’t need any of that, but I also didn’t have any fresh ideas for dinner at home. So, second meal out for the day. Still, it felt good to sit there by myself with a good book and just enjoy some quiet time and a tasty Mexican meal.

Tonight, I am thinking that I need to add to my goals maybe just a week of not eating out, a chance to be intentional about what I might do instead to care for myself that is healthier and hopefully less costly as well. I think to start with a week would be good and I can go from there.

This process is all about caring for me, giving myself the best I can. That’s the key.