The End of the Challenge

Well, so I will admit that I disappeared for a while. I’ll also admit that wasn’t good. I haven’t been eating like I should. There’s been too much pizza and snack foods and not enough light and healthy vegetables. The result has been an additional 5 lbs.

I can feel it in how I’m breathing. I can feel it in my mood. I am just starting to feel the edge of sadness. I need to get back on track and it’s a tough time to do that. I got offered a new job and I got an interview for another position. So, right now I am finding myself waiting and deciding which of two very different roles might be the right one for me. I am getting to ask myself about my values. I’m getting to ask myself what I need and what I want. I’m in a space of making hard decisions.

I need my health to help and not hinder my ability to make good choices. So, I will keep trying. I will move forward. I have learned from this experience and I will take that learning with me.

There will be more posts to come. I hope you’ll keep reading.

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60 Days and Where Am I?

So, I’ve not been entering my blog posts as religiously as I was for quite a while in this exercise. It doesn’t mean that I’ve given up, not at all.

I think what I have done is made a regular habit of be conscious of the fruits and vegetables that I am putting into my body. I don’t always get the full 6-9 cups, but I am always getting at least three which is more than a daily serving. I feel good about what I am accomplishing.

Things are busy with work picking up at the university and my considerations of moving back to Wisconsin. Still, I am eating well over all and getting out to be social and exercise as well. This weekend I got to spend time with my brother and sister-in-law who I normally only see once or twice a year. It was a great day at the Western Minnesota Steam Threshers Reunion. It’s really amazing how many people attend it each year. It’s just such a delightfully innocent, old-fashioned, simple kind of fun. And, this year it was filled with laughter and stories from our growing up years. Yesterday and today were for hiking. Buddy and I probably put in about eight miles at our nearby state parks. He loved it! It amazed me how after walking four or five miles yesterday he was ready to run when we stopped by the dog park. He played with friends for over an hour! Tonight, he’s a bit more relaxed. I suspect that it’s due to the flea and tick and heart worm preventative medicines.

All of these things, along with taking my supplements and drinking lots of water, and offering prayer each day are helping me feel my best. It is a good life and I am thankful.

Day 54

It’s a journey, but I am getting back on track.

This morning started with a bowl of blueberries and banana with a bit of almond milk. Last night I cooked up a couple chicken breasts with squash, beans, and tomatoes. So a bit of that was lunch. Before dinner I walked out to my garden. It’s a bit of an overwhelming and neglected space. I came home with a big bag full of squash, cucumbers, some sort of little red peppers, and tomatoes. Dinner was scrambled eggs with peppers and tomatoes with a side of cucumbers with hummus. Dessert was blueberries, strawberries, and bananas with a bit of almond milk.

It was the healthiest mix of food that I’ve had in about two weeks. With that and the students returning to campus I am feeling in a better state of mind than I have been in the last week or so. It is good. Now, to keep it going again and see what great things can happen.

51 Days and I’m Back

Okay, so I disappeared there for eleven days. I went home to Wisconsin for a few days and used the excuse of a vacation to not pay a whole lot of attention to tracking my fruits and veggies. I still ate pretty good for the most part though I did indulge in some sweets and definitely took on some of Wisconsin’s greatest cheese and beer. I would strongly recommend the raspberry tart beer from New Glarus. That’s saying a lot since I’m really not much of a beer fan.

I haven’t gotten back on track fully yet even after a week back in Minnesota. There’s still sugar in my system and I’ve not fully backed away from it. I’m not fully back up to 6-9 cups of fruits and vegetables though I am getting some. I just added in some coconut oil and started a turmeric supplement today. I’m hoping that this stuff will help heal my brain.

I am seeing the need to get away from sugar again and just get back on track. I’ve been feeling grumpy the last few days and need to revive. I am putting lots of work into my next adventure. Sending off my applications and hoping to get back to Wisconsin soon. But, meanwhile this is home and there must be joy here somewhere.

40 Days, Over Halfway There

Okay, I admit it. I didn’t measure my food today. I operated visually. I need to get back to measuring to assure my accuracy.

I don’t think I hit six cups today, but I was close. I started the day with my fruit with almond milk. Had a lunch of pizza and a large salad. Dinner was plenty of refried beans with tomatoes and and some chips. So, not a great health food wonder day, but it wasn’t horrible either. For years my typical days had cereal, grilled cheese, and pasta with sauce from a jar pretty often. Today had some green stuff. Heck, it had multiple colors of fruits and vegetables. I feel okay about that. It was kind of slacker, but kind of good caring too. That’s an okay thing to do.

The Question of the 39th Day

39 days in to this challenge to increase my fruits and vegetables intake and I’m doing well with getting at least six cups a day. Since I added in an effort to increase my water intake a couple weeks ago I’ve been mostly doing better on that too though the last couple days I’ve probably been running a bit dry. I can feel the dull headache now and need to get myself a couple more cups. I’m not doing well on decreasing the number of times I go out for pizza or the amount that I eat. I am going out to other restaurants less though.

That brings me to the question. I’ve been having a tough time at my work for quite a while now, but it ebbs and flows. Recently, it’s been quite frustrating and I’ve found myself feeling my self-confidence ebb away and just generally feeling down. Then, I go out for pizza. I find myself wondering– is it the fact that I am feeling worn, beaten by my workplace, and just down on myself that leads me to eating something that I know isn’t good for me and that doesn’t even taste as good as the many homemade dishes that I can treat myself with or is that I am eating something that doesn’t taste all that good and isn’t good for me that is pushing me into feeling down, worn and beaten? It is that circle, much like the cycle of addiction I suppose. So how do I get out?

Six Weeks and Where Am I At?

Okay, so I disappeared for a few days there. I needed to step away for a bit for my own self care. Work has been a challenge. I love my job and the people I work with are great. Moving from working in grassroots organizations to a liberal arts university in a time that is particularly difficult for small, public, liberal arts universities is tough.

Some days things go well and some days, not so much. There is much more behind that, but as those who work in large hierarchical organizations know, sometimes those stories need to wait. I will say that I was proud of myself this past week on one of those really tough days at work. Instead of diving into depression with sugar and junk food for my lunch, I found a quiet spot outside and rested my spirit with fresh vegetables and hummus and fed myself with positive self talk. That’s a huge step.

From there I just needed a few days to not think too much about my current work and instead once again focus on dreams. There are some possibilities that dreams may come true. I’ve got two interviews coming up in the next week or so with nonprofits focused on healthy eating and growing food. Both are back home in Wisconsin and within any easy travel time to my family. Taking care of myself is a good thing and may just be giving me a path to taking care of my community.

Meanwhile, I’m remaining pretty consistent with about six cups of fruits and vegetables a day. There is much to be proud of.